Two women who never truly met, whose lives intertwine and mirror each other in surprising and alarming experiences, create a masterfully told story of a past that is constantly being rewritten. No matter how much you know about Mary Wollstonecraft and Mary Shelley, this book reveals the passions and struggles faced by all women in the time periods and every reader will gain historical insights that help bring literature to life.
This is just a quick follow-up post to a previous post regarding one of my husband’s favorite authors, Chuck Palahniuk. In short, I spoke with the author very briefly at the #LaBookFest 2017 and he gave me a card with some specific directions to follow for a surprise for my husband. On the 25th of May, Rick received a mysterious package in the mail.
Last year, a student emailed me during the final week of school:
Dear Mrs. Lee,
I see you’ve given me a D. I want you to know I really tried in your class. I think I deserve a better grade than a D. If you don’t, well then I guess I don’t.
I checked the grades and her point average, a 62%, clearly point to a D. I’ve done my job, right? She earned a D, she gets a D. But something doesn’t feel right about simply boiling everything down to a number in a grading app to represent a three-dimensional student. I do further research:
- Reviewing her essays, she writes tons of interesting details about the text; however, there is not any structure, or any of the component parts of an essay.
- Her attendance is near perfect
- In her other classes, she has all Fails, and one D
- The previous year, she had all Fails and one D.
- I reflect on how many insightful comments and questions she asked throughout the year.
Is it possible that something is being overlooked? Is there a part of student performance and engagement in the classroom that can’t be captured by grades? As a teacher of students with special needs, I am almost numb to the amount of Ds and Fs my students receive from the collection of their classes. The lesson my student learned last year, as evidenced in the email, is the lesson I want all students to learn: self-advocacy. She definitely has a voice and a healthy perspective on her worth as a student.
There is a quote arguably attributed on the internet to Albert Einstein, “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.” This same sentiment has been made into cartoon sketches, videos, and it is often used for Special Education professional development. Despite this focus in schools on Universal Design, alternative assessments, choices in expression of knowledge, many students in special education programs continue to have multiple Fails because they don’t measure up to the rubric, the standards, the points.
I haven’t figured out how to articulate this thought clearly, but I will attempt to get the gist of it here. If students can do something, they get an A or B or C. If they can’t do it, they are graded and punished for what they do not know how to do on demand, in a certain format, under specific time constraints. While discussing this at a table with colleagues, a teacher voiced her opposition:
Obviously this is not my position. However, for students that consistently earn Ds and Fs, the effort to show-up is immeasurable. MindShift published an article, “The Emotional Weight of Being Graded, for Better or for Worse,” that discusses the impact of ‘bad’ grades on students’ mental health. Additionally, one professor of neuroscience and psychology is quoted several times explaining that students assess their own knowledge of a subject based on the grade they receive, and also, students are emotionally attached to the grades, which can dictate if they like or dislike the subject. Therefore, if a student Fails a class, s/he will feel that s/he does not know anything pertaining to the topic, and the student will develop an aversion to the subject because s/he received a negative grade in the class. Considering I work with teens with special needs who often have difficulties acknowledging, naming, and expressing their emotions, it is difficult to comprehend how damaging receiving 3-4 Ds and Fs on every report card is to their general feelings about education and self-worth.
While the emotional needs of a student cannot be a basis for assigning a grade, it is equally inappropriate to state that students who receive Ds and Fs aren’t trying hard enough in class. My teaching philosophy is that every kid wants to learn. There are multiple reasons why it can appear to a teacher that a student isn’t ‘trying hard enough.’ When a student struggles to understand a concept or subject, often, the student doesn’t understand how to ‘try.’ Sometimes teachers say, “All I want is for him to try,”-and when he attempts to–the result is the same D or F as he earned before this assignment.
At my table of colleagues, I told the story of a student who joined my English class in the middle of the year. He’s an 11th grader who has never attended a school for more than 10-20 days in a row. Many grade levels he did not even experience. He tells me about helping his grandmother set out products on the street in downtown LA to sell at 4 in the morning. The first writing assignment he completed in my class consisted of one sentence. Each assignment afterwards, I had someone helping him, even if it was an assessment–so that he could learn how to write a formal response to a text. We just completed a comparison essay on The Crucible and “Half-Hanged Mary” and he wrote the entire paper by himself. He wrote three full paragraphs that showed his position and used evidence from the two texts to support his position. I was thrilled beyond belief for his accomplishment; however, if I graded him on a rubric, he would receive a D or an F. He did not have any of the three components of an introduction paragraph, he did not write using transitions, and he did not have an in-depth analysis of each text. Despite this, while reading his paper, I felt like I was on a bicycle for the first time, riding without my hands, with a cool breeze guiding me to the next destination–and I know he had to have a similar feeling about his work and effort.
In the planning stages, I thought I could get all of my ideas in to one blog post. However, after writing everything, I will add a part two to discuss how I plan to approach grading for the next school year.
Poetry is Magic
“Books saved my life” is the quote that stands with me after watching Luis J. Rodriguez read from his new poetry book, Borrowed Bones. My students have always read books from Rodriguez. At first, it was kids from foster homes that gravitated to the Rodriguez biography, Always Running: La Vida Loca: Gang Days in L. A. But now, you could walk in and find any variety of students reading the first biography, or It Calls You Back. As for myself, I’ve only read a couple of his poetry books: The Concrete River and My Nature is Hunger: New and Selected Poems 1989-2004.
Rodriguez is personable and he writes with a realism that can make you laugh, or feel the twist of a blade. Though I’ve had so many students read his books, though his book is so often stolen from libraries by kids who might also be able to say: A book saved my life, there were very few people out in the morning to see the Poet Laureate of Los Angeles share his work. Regardless, he told stories as if he was among friends that he hadn’t seen in a long time.
Peter, a charming, comedic man with a cute dog, begins his story at 43. The first chapter, “Diagnosis Blues,” introduces Parkinson’s Disease (PD) as a psychedelic meteor that disrupts all aspects of life, and needs the intervention of a certain ‘angel.’ Will Peter outlive his suicidal thoughts?
After reading the first 4 chapters, turning off the lights for a later -than-normal bedtime of midnight, I was compelled to flip the switch and complete the final chapters. Dunlap-Shohl is insanely talented at layouts, designs, coloring, storytelling, metaphors, and metacognition. I recommend this book to everyone who enjoys intelligent, comedic, real-life narratives.
Check-out these engaging blogs from Peter-Dunlap-Shohl:
Is it because I’m an SDC teacher that I have sweat-inducing, heart-stopping, nightmare-inspiring thoughts whenever I consider releasing control to the students in the classroom? Or is this a common, yet-named teacher illness that should have its own label as defined by the American Psychiatric Association in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders? Regardless of the answers to the above questions, it has always been my experience that when I release control (and dive into the abyss of unknown outcomes), the results are always better than anything I could have planned. As I rewatched a Ted Talk from a few years ago (I’ll post it at the end of the blog), I wondered how I consistently try to create a student-centered classroom.
3 o’clock Teacher
Have you ever watched enviously while some teachers march to the parking lot shortly after the bell rings, but you have a metaphorical stack of internet paperwork to complete? Do you promise yourself every summer you’re not going to spend your weekends planning awesome lessons–that magically it will happen during the week? Do you promise yourself at the beginning of every school year that you are going to have a consistent fitness plan and healthy social life during the work week? Do you promise yourself every year you are going to read for pleasure EVERY night?
It doesn’t matter how many promises I make, I break them all and eventually I end up frustrated. A couple of weeks ago I came up with a plan to help me maintain some of my committments.
Teacher Blogs: The Next Generation of Collaboration
Establishing and maintaining a professional teacher blog enables teachers to publish, reflect, share, collaborate, and enrich their professional presence. While publishing has long been the standard for university professors, secondary teachers do not have the same expectations placed upon them. Primarily, this is due to time constraints, but the result is that secondary teachers do not always remain current in their field. To this point, a weekly writing practice can enable teachers to stay engaged and relevant in their particular field of study in regards to pedagogy and current research. Arguably, blogging may be a less time-consuming way to publish content and begin a professional conversation that extends beyond the walls of one school. At the same time, blogging enables teachers to understand writing for a purpose and for an audience, which increases credibility when insisting on the same from students. Since reflection is one of the most important aspects of improving one’s teaching practice, the blog seems like an essential tool for every teacher. Finally, in an environment of questionable evaluation procedures for teachers, a teacher blog enables the teacher to highlight successes in the classroom and demonstrate his/her teaching pedagogy instead of being limited to one or two observations a year. I plan to utilize my teacher blog in a number of ways:
Create a dialogue for secondary Special Day Teachers about issues that aren’t addressed anywhere else. For example, when I searched for a community of special education teacher blogs as resources, I found multiple detailed blogs for the primary grades, and moderate to severe classroom teachers. Lacking in representation is the voice of the SDC teachers at the high school level who teach common core standards to students with learning disabilities, or other eligibilities that impede progress in the general education classroom.
Share and reflect on teaching practices. While there are many issues that surround SDC teachers at the secondary level, in the end, what happens in the classroom – the experience and growth of the students – is of primary concern, just like any other teacher.
Read and write about current research in special education. Probably more than any other area of secondary education, the practices and pedagogy are researched and constantly changing. Due to the on-going paperwork involved with being a case-carrier (though I know the importance of being knowledgeable of current practices and research), this is probably the area of most potential growth in my on going development as a special educator. Therefore, my goal is to utilize the blog to create a mini annotated bibliography that is updated once a month with specific peer reviewed articles. While I should be reading more, this is a plan to begin the process.
Maintain a focus on potential interventions for both reading and writing at the secondary level. One of the struggles for English SDC teachers is trying to teach content and skills that lead to a high school diploma to students who read and write significantly below grade-level. For those who are not special education teachers, “significantly below grade level” is realistically defined as students who do not read above the primary grades. While all teachers have students who struggle with reading and writing, there is a spotlight on SDC teachers who have to teach content, but also miraculously and simultaneously increase the Lexile levels of all students.
Increase my professional online presence. The majority of my shifts in teaching practices have occurred through participating in online mediums and engaging with other teachers. This ability and opportunity has benefitted my students and me and allowed the English teacher part of me to flourish. Eventually, I would love for the special education side of me to likewise be inspired and cultivated through a sense of community and support.
While there may not be current research on the importance of blogging for secondary teachers, I will use this blog to argue that writing professionally in your field is essential to maintain relevancy in current teaching methodologies.
This is my husband’s favorite story from last week:
Two students are working on their fairy tale research project.
K. says, “How do you spell your name?”
M spells it out.
K responds, “I thought your name was Student M.”
And M says, “It is. In every other class. In here, my name is M.”
My husband likes this story because he says I’ve created a comfortable space for students to be themselves.
Creating the classroom environment is arguably one of the most important tasks a teacher must do before any students can engage in learning outcomes. As teachers, we spend a large portion of the day in this room and students come to love walking through the door (or hopefully, not the reverse). Over time, one’s ideas shift and this is mirrored in the classroom. Here are my current thoughts on how to create an effective and safe learning environment in the SDC English classroom.
C-Cultivate a Routine
Over the years, I have found that the best classroom management strategy is to have a routine that the students understand. This is comforting. Obviously, I change how things are done, but it is in a structure that the students can then tackle.
L-Look for Moments to Connect
I know, I just said that routine is the most important strategy, but now I’m saying that connecting to students is your number one job in the classroom; otherwise, why teach? Initially, I thought this would be challenging because each year the students seem to get younger, and I light one more candle on that vegan cake. But the secret is: be present and see who is in front of you.
One student comes to mind as the perfect exemplar. A fashion diva, he reminds me of Phillip Seymour Hoffman playing Truman Capote at a New York soiree. When I commented on his Guns ‘N Roses t-shirt one day, he ever-so-patiently explained, “Mrs. Lee, it’s fashion.” Now I’ll tell him stories about Axl Rose and he’ll sigh-in-dramatic-fashion, “I thought he was dead.” This is a very small moment, but in the day of a student, I’ve read that sometimes a teacher, throughout the ENTIRE day, may never say the student’s name.
A-Anticipate Problems with Assignments and Technology
Almost every time I’ve planned to show a video–there has been some technical problem. Either the internet is down at that moment and it won’t stream, or I can’t get the subtitles to work for my students who are deaf and hard of hearing, or the bulb in the Smart board goes out; there’s always something. If students have in their mind that they are watching a video, you can’t simply turn around and say,”Well, it looks like it’s time to write our three-paragraph-in-class-timed-writing-response to August Wilson. If there is a chance that something can go wrong, have a back-up plan that is EQUALLY engaging to the students!
S-Supply Engaging Content that Allows Students Control
I think this is one of those Giant Hairy Scary rules that teachers may not actually do for a couple of years. It takes time to learn HOW to give the students control of their learning, but a prerequisite goes back to Looking for Moments to Connect and knowing your students.
S-Supplement Student Interest by Allowing Choice
At first glance, this may look like a repeat of the above, or that I have become lazy with my acronym. However, not all students understand content in the same manner; therefore, it only makes sense to restate that not all students should produce the same end product.
R-Reward Desired Behavior
As a teacher of students with special needs, I constantly have to remind myself that positive behavior support is the best prescription to keep classroom management as close to the only-in-my-head “dream classroom” that I want for myself and my students.
I think every teacher has that ONE class that makes her challenge everything she knows to be true about teaching in high school. I have one almost every year. This year, the students were piling in just as the bell rang and there was this playful bantering bouncing around the room. I knew if I tried to start the independent reading, it would be unsuccessful and I would only end up frustrated. As I stood in front of the class, I said, “It looks like everyone needs 5 minutes talk-time.” A student responded, “For real? Yes, I kind of do.” So I set a timer for five minutes and the students talked. When the timer went off, we started class and everyone got what they needed that day.
O-Omit Negative Comments!!!
O-Observe Behavior and Make a Plan
I’m sorry to say, it doesn’t matter how long you’ve been teaching, there will always be one or two students who find ways to get to you. I have one of those quick minds that instantly thinks of five things to blurt out when a student engages in whatever the behavior is that I don’t like in the classroom. Instead, I don’t say anything. I talk to friends and other teachers the student has–or maybe a counselor. I make a plan. I stick to the plan. If the plan doesn’t work, I make a new one. Behavior specialists always say that all behaviors serve a purpose and I have found this to be true. The only way to understand why a behavior is happening, is to observe it and understand it.
M-Make Learning Fun
Finally, the end result, if you can create the ideal classroom environment, learning will be fun and it will (look) effortless!
Running a PD? Think of using the CLASSROOM acronym and have teachers pair-up and create their own classroom culture. Sometimes we get so bogged down with testing, grading, and implementing new curriculum, that we forget the most important aspects of the job!
What’s important to you when creating a classroom environment?
As I get lost in Corridor in the Asylum, by Vincent van Gogh, knowing that the artist sent this drawing to his brother, Theo, as a record of his surroundings, I can’t help but connect the image as a personal mind-mirror, as a realistic representation of what it feels like to be a new blogger. I’ve read on various blogs that it can take one-to-two years for you to build an audience. One-to-two years!!! In a world where social media brings instant likes, comments, smiley-faces, and a feeling of-hey, someone-is-paying-attention-to-you, time becomes a labyrinth, an Alice in Wonderland rabbit hole of self-doubt that resurrects the five-headed-inner-editor-monster that hibernates in us all.
Despite the expert knowledge of all of those who’ve blogged before me, knowing that people are not ready to consume every hyphenated description I write, some other creature inside of me is excited and aspires to write. Yesterday morning, as I did my Twitter scroll, @KellyGtoGo tweets:
The Best Writing Teachers Are Writers Themselves https://t.co/K25yFlrb4f
— Kelly Gallagher (@KellyGToGo) February 11, 2017
In an argument for teachers to resist prescriptive writing and allow for and encourage personal reflection as part of the classroom experience, Cindy O’Donnell-Allen begins her thoughtful article by writing, “I was a closet writer from an early age. In the second grade I wrote a poem for my classmate Patrick O’Neal, who sat alone everyday on the playground, but I didn’t give it to him” (The Atlantic). Similarly, in my early elementary school years, I was a professional Cat Detective who, with a notebook, tracked the neighborhood cats, and wrote avidly about my adventures. Writing was something fun, something I chose to do, without an assignment.
What does this mean and how does it impact me?
- Teachers need a chance to develop a new writing pedagogy. O’Donnell-Allen wrote her article in part to promote the benefits of the National Writing Project as a life-long opportunity of professional development for teachers, by teachers, to create meaningful writing experiences for teachers. I’ve participated in the Cal State Northridge Writing Project with @KathleeRowlands, and since the training I’ve had countless opportunities to write, collaborate, and commune with teachers from a variety of grades, contents, and locations.
- Sometimes we have to write for ourselves, first. I had planned to write a more ‘academic’ post, since this blog is my Master’s Project, but I sat for nearly an hour at a coffee shop, neither drinking my soy-white-mocha-burn-my-tongue-off-hot, nor writing. My planned blog title, “Blogging as PD? TBD” might still appear one day, I just couldn’t do it today.
- Writing is joyful! I started this blog talking about how long it takes to build an audience, and yet, that is not what motivates me to write consistently. I write because I’ve always written. I write because I love to create. And who knows, it may be time to bring back the Cat Detective!